Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Suspense

I packed my bag, scrubbed the floors, stocked the freezer until there is no room left; I updated my birth plan, washed all the baby things, charged an extra battery for my cell phone, and answered a round of calls from people who are all waiting for the Big Event to take place.

I have re-read all the pregnancy, birth and breastfeeding literature I could get my hands on, visited dozens of natural midwifery blogs and websites, watched The Business of Being Born and What Babies Want; I'm nearly unable to concentrate on anything that doesn't have to do with labor, birth, and babies. I'm so restless I could hardly keep my mind in one piece while reading out a bedtime story to my daughter tonight.

I admit that every morning when I wake up, I look at the calendar and can't help but think, "another day and still no regular contractions in sight." Every twinge makes me get my hopes up that perhaps it's the real thing, but it isn't. I always knew that my "official" due date was a far-off shot from reality, but now I'm literally expecting things to start rolling every minute of the day, and I'm getting to the point (which, I know, has been shared by many expectant mamas) when it illogically feels I've been pregnant forever - and will be pregnant forever!

I know that in an environment that pushes women to induce once they're a day over their EDD, the only thing that can save my sanity is knowing it's highly unlikely my body  has "forgotten" it should go into labor. Oh, and I have not had any examinations done to know whether things are "cooking". It won't help the baby be born sooner.

All that is left to do is pray, and I'm praying. I know the wait won't seem so long once I'm looking back at it from "the other side of the tunnel", but right now, it feels like an eternity.

In the meantime, if you want to laugh, cry, tear out your hair or feel your blood reach boiling point, visit My OB said WHAT?! - a collection of ridiculous, infuriating, or just plain weird things told by OBs and nurses to mothers.

34 comments:

Laura Angelika said...

May your wait be short and your dear baby be in your arms soon. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers, Anna!

All the best!

Kim said...

Ack! I sympathize!

May you have a wonderful birth and healthy baby.

Ganeida said...

All in God's good time. Enjoy these last few days with your daughter! ☺

"Morethnrubies1" said...

Don't worry mama, you're almost there! I had the exact same emotions and thoughts rolling through my head as well right before our latest made her way into this world. It will happen, babies do come out!

Kari said...

Oh, I so sympathize!! I'm over a week overdue, and every person I encounter says, "You haven't had that baby yet?". Like somehow I'd forget to tell family and friends that I gave birth!! May your days of waiting fly by as you wait to welcome this precious gift!

Rightthinker-Andrea said...

I'm with you, lady! I am 40 weeks 6 days today..and...waiting! I am planning our first homebirth for our 6th baby, so much of it seems like my first time-completely surrendered to the process and God's timing!

I'm praying nothing but blessings of health and a speedy delivery for you and your little one!

God Bless!

Persuaded said...

I'm praying for you honey... and also for little Shira and her little sibling. Oh and your hubby too! Praying for a peaceful, safe delivery for you and the baby and a pleasant, smooth adjustment for the rest of the family♥

Rose said...

Thinking of you Anna dear.

Anonymous said...

As the Greeks say: May you be freed with only one pain. (It loses something in the translation.)

Lisa said...

Anna,

Here's wishing you a safe and healthy delivery!

Can't wait to read about the great news!

Kate said...

My thoughts are with you. I've NEVER made it to my EDD. My babies were all early. Frankly, I find that the internal exams do help progress my labor. For my daughter, my OB gave me an exam, sent me home with an induction date planned and I return within a few hours to give birth naturally.

Miss Tatiana said...

I was born TWO WHOLE WEEKS late--- my Mom was very lucky to have a doctor who didn't push her into giving birth. I am so amazed at how impatient doctors are-- they really ought to be ashamed of rushing a mother into giving birth and harming the child.

I'm not even married yet, but I'm really thinking of just doing a home birth when it comes to my first child (should my husband and I be blessed to have one).

Anonymous said...

It sounds like any day now. Take care to have some Franz Schubert on hand. Frankie is lovely for a newborn, and soothing and inspiring for mama. Blessings for safe passage!

Mrs Happy Homemaker said...

My latest addition is 5 months old - and I can so sympathize with the anticipation of wanting the new little bundle of joy to arrive! I remember with every single pain I got - Id think 'is this it? is this it'!!

I pray for you to have as painless of a delivery as possible & a healthy baby!!

Lady M said...

Well that proved to be some entertaining reading! I only had one weird experience, with our 2nd child. The nurse told me that I did not need to make that "sound" when I was doing the breathing to get through the "pit induced" contractions. I managed, in between the contractions that were literally on top of each other to gasp out that I was not purposefully making ANY noise - it was just coming out with the breathing. She said nothing else after that. I mean really - I was not screaming, not even groaning - just some vague noise occurring when I was breathing through the contraction! I mean really - I labored through pitocin without more than a "take the edge off shot" - give me a break!

Praying for you to have a safe, easy delivery - I suspect it is near since you are all ready now! I had wondered since you did not post earlier, lol!

Alex and Charis said...

I live reading "my ob said what?!" too! Hilarious. Good luck keeping your mind on something else! I hope you have a wonderful birth experience. God bless your family.

My OB Said WHAT?!? said...

Thanks for the trackback to our website! May your birth be strong and powerful!

Best,
MOSW team!

Rebekka said...

That link: sheeeeeesh.

Praying for a safe delivery for you and the baby!

Yours hopefully thriving said...

Keeping you in my prayers Anna.
Grainne

Lady Anne said...

Usually, these wild bursts of energy mean the little one has decided to "vacate the premises", so to speak. Hear's hoping and praying it is so, and that all goes well.

Hugs!

Sheri said...

Praying for you Anna! Love & Mommy hugs!

Kate said...

Totally been there!! 3 days after my due date I was lying in bed complaining to my husband "This baby is NEVER going to come... there isn't any baby!!! I feel like an idiot setting up that crib!"... an hour later my water broke!!

Anonymous said...

I have some sympathy with some of the reaction to the comments referred to on the ob.gyn site. As the mother of a midwifery sister, I know how often she strives for minimal monitoring and a "normal" delivery. She attends many home births.She also attends many sad situations where monitoring would have helped.

I realise the system is somewhat different in Israel/USA, but spare a thought for midwives epsecially - they are the qualified professionals who cold save yours and babies life ultimately, as well as aiding in normal deliveries.

My daughter often stays over her committed shift to deliver a labouring lady,is totally committed, she works in deprived settings.

A proud mum (UK)

Karen said...

We all feel that way toward the end...just hang in there!! You aren't that much "overdue" if indeed they got your due date right to begin with which we all know isn't too likely.

I'm starting to feel that way myself and wishing I could go into labor right now. But then I realize wait, I've still got 7 weeks to go! I'd better NOT go into labor right now or I'd have to deal with preemie issues! But ugh I feel like whining "But I'm soo BIG!!"

We're gonna get thru this...just keep telling yourself, there is no record of a woman ever being pregnant forever. Oh and elephants are pregnant for 2 years...the poor things!!

Jewels said...

I'm thinking of you and praying for you, precious ((Anna)). Can't wait to hear of your sweet littlest one's entrance into your loving arms, and family. Sending much love, Jewels

kimberly said...

i am commenter Leah Brand-Burks' mother... she was TWENTY days late and 9'4 oz... yikes... I was 10 months pregnant! But, I was blessed and she is the best daughter/new mother in the whole world!

Yiskah said...

I think someone's had her precious one, already! No new blog post...I think so!

Sylvia said...

So I am guessing the reason for the blog silence is the baby is here.

Hope you have/had a good delivery and an easy time.

God bless you Anna.

Linda said...

You and your family are in my prayers.May you be holding your new baby soon!

Literature Goddess said...

Wanted you to know that I've been thinking of and praying for you! Just thought I'd check in and see if there was any news....hope you are busy holding both of your sweet babies!

Homemakers Cottage said...

I've been there, Anna, and understand exactly how you feel! I remember worrying that my body might have "forgotten" how to go into labor, lol!

A natural way to "get things rolling" is to take black and blue cohosh tincture. It helps get contractions going and keep them going once they start (but won't induce labor unless your body is ready). Just thought I'd mention it. :o)

Praying your little one will arrive safely and soon!

Kristy @ Homemaker's Cottage

Rachele said...

Hope your Holy Day was blessed! And I hope you were able to share it with the newest little one! The suspense is killing us all.

Cheryl said...

Praying that you and baby are well...miss reading your posts and hope that you are able to find the time to update soon...

With love and Hope,
Cheryl

Anonymous said...

Praying for your family Mrs Anna T! Hoping all is well! We heard from you 2 days after Shira's birth and it has been 12 days since you have posted.