Recently, I began to think that I should probably update my header photo. As much as I love it, and a truly beautiful caption I think it is, I am no longer a young bride, but a mother of two (beautiful and wonderful) girls. I thought perhaps to replace it with a photo, or a collage of photos, that would better represent my day-to-day life at home and with my family.
This led me to thinking about life, and how it changes and transforms. When I began to write on this blog, I was a young and energetic girl, living a very full and busy life, seeking truths and pondering about the role of family, society, femininity, women, feminism, and so on and so forth... I expressed opinions, hosted heated debates, and (busy as I was with studies, work, etc) miraculously functioned through lack of sleep the likes of which I had not experienced even later, in my new-motherhood days.
Fast forward a couple of years... I got married (much sooner than I thought), had a baby, then another... and now, just as though Someone smiled at me and said, "let's see how you live out your dreams", I am placed in a little house in the middle of nowhere, with a rain-collecting and water-recycling system, a herb garden, and chickens in the yard.
And so, naturally my focus has shifted primarily towards living a simple, satisfying life with my family, learning how to be the best mother I possibly can, and keeping my Crocs well away from chicken poo. Sometimes I get these panic attacks, fearing that time is slipping by and "nothing is done", but then I realize that this seemingly-nothing is actually the great gift of slowing down... I'm now at a stage of life when pace should be slow and outward commitments kept to a bare minimum.
Some would say it's boring. I'm loving it. :o)
And what of the header photo?.. Oh, when I spoke of it to my husband, he was really disappointed. "What! Take off this lovely picture, which captures the very basic essence of building a Jewish home!" - and so I obligingly left it unchanged. Some things, after all, had better not change.