Just odd thoughts floating in and out of my head today...
I've been thinking of the word "want" (perhaps, as a non-native English speaker, I am more prone to linguistic introspection). Though "want" is a simple word, it has several meanings, among them:
"To desire; to wish for"
"To be in need of" (as in "the Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want"). Incidentally, in Hebrew the word used here is "echsar", from the root ch.s.r, that is, to lack or be missing something.
For me, this is very symbolic. Because, when we "want" something, we can stop and think whether we wish for it or need it.
There are many things I want, in the sense of wishing I could have them - but I know I don't want them in the sense of needing them.
Photo: it is the season of narcissuses again
This is also an exercise in faith because, looking back at my life, I realize that there was never, ever a situation when I didn't have what I needed. There were many times when I couldn't have what I wanted, but my needs were always taken care of. And much more than my basic needs of food, clothing, shelter. I have had very thoughtful, kind, timely gifts which were in themselves, and in the way they were given, nothing short of little miracles.
Right now, our family is in a kind of complicated situation, financially. I would rather not go into details, and I have long debated within myself whether I should mention it at all; it shall suffice to say we need faith, and the memory of G-d's constant, kind, generous benevolence to us throughout the years, to know that surely we will not be forsaken.