... for as long as I can remember. All the while, though life is undoubtedly at one of its busiest periods around here, I have been thinking up a long, insightful, eloquent post to put out. Now, however, I feel I just have to say it like it is: I have never been so worried in my life.
Not during the withdrawal from Gush Katif (though I was doubtless both enraged and incensed). Not during Operation Cast Lead. Not during any attack on Israel that happened since. But what John Kerry is trying to do is giving me the creeps, a thousand times over. We have so very little land as it is, and the smaller our country is, and the more jagged our borders are, the more difficult it will be to protect. And besides, who gave our government the authority to do such a thing? The land of Israel is not theirs to give away. It was promised to us by G-d. As for Kerry, I honestly believe that he's either evil, or deluded by a vision of himself "making history", at the expense of Israel's safety.
So I've been worried sick, and not just because the place where we live had been cut off in John Kerry's "peace proposal" (which will never bring peace). Our personal possible relocation is nothing compared to what might happen to Israel. I'm a sane person (or at least, I claim to be), but I've spent much of my time lately reading about the Gog and Magog war, and wondering whether it has begun already.
I, who have lived in Israel all my life and never contemplated living anywhere else, began checking out the immigration laws of New Zealand. However, I calmed down somewhat after listening to several lectures by famous rabbis. It appears that, paradoxically, though the center of the Gog and Magog war will be in Israel, Israel will also be the safest place in the world for Jews. I have no logical explanation for this, but then, neither can I explain all the obvious miracles that happened in recent years (thousands of missiles directed at Israel and almost all falling in empty areas, or hitting empty houses, etc).
All of this is another layer of our lives, which can seem so very mundane (doing chores, taking care of children, doing the shopping, etc). We are always aware of the fact that we live in a place which is, if not geographically, spiritually the center of the world.
So, here is what I have to say to anyone who might be reading: keep Israel in your thoughts. Keep Israel in your prayers. Stand by Israel, and G-d will reward you as He had promised to Abraham ("and I shall bless those who bless you").